Today

has just been one of those days. I can't decided if its a good day or a bad one.

Little guy slept all night long. It's not something that happens often so I tend to celebrate it when it does. But, he woke up soaked. And he's still awake at 11pm.

Robbie and I went shopping today. We had a good time. But, we didn't find anything to buy.

I made a wonderful dinner. I actually cooked, it tasted good and nothing was burnt or raw. For me thats a big deal! I've been getting better about the "housewife" thing. I attempted to make monkey bread but the stupid pan leaked all over the oven. Which made me really mad!

My BFF had a mamogram, ultrasound and a biopsy today. I'm nervous for her. I don't think that it is anything. She's scared which makes me scared. I'm odd like that.

Little Moments Part 1

That make me smile.

-hearing I love you as the last thing the babies and I say to each other at night

-singing along to music in the car

-realizing Robbie knows I'm Mommy when he says things like "Watch Mommy I do it!" When he's doing something cute.

-saying all done after like 10 seconds in timeout

-when they as for something specific and know what they want

-Robbie sang the peanut song to me today. I've sung it to him since his first day. Its the song I sing him before bed.

-blonde curls and pigtails with bows

-swimming in the tub

-the excitement in a toddlers eyes when they discover something new

-new words. Halloween, hippo, melon, snuggles, and about a zillion more. Baileys vocab is pushing 500 words and Robbies is close to hers although she's much more verbal and puts her words in to sentences better

-when someone tells me my daughter looks like me.

-when someone tells me Robbie looks like me

-reading a book with Robbie and we get to the page about friends and he always yells JACKERS!

-the drums that my brother bought the babies. He's in recovery and has been sober 6 months. The look on his face when he carried them upstairs was evil and proud at the same time.

-a zillion other things I'm just to tired to blog about....this will be part 1

2 things

All friends should share. Wine and giggles. I shared some with my slightly *read...very* intoxicated future father in law this weekend. I need more wine dates. More laughter. More relaxation.

In other news I decided its bringing sexy back time again. I went to the gym at my new place today. Have I mentioned how much I love it? The place, so not the gym. I decided to do 30 min on the elepitcal (spelt wrong, don't care) and id like to thank Zach for keeping me text company. I did a little over 4 miles. My goal is to work up to 60 min and 8 miles. Hope I can do it. And then I tanned...skin cancer I know, I'm aware. Save it. Anyway. I'm bringing sexy ish back. Or trying. See how well it goes. Jenn I need you to text me to make sure I'm running. Seriously. I need.to.get.in.shape. tired of looking like poop.

Whhhhhhyyy

Is it eleventythousand zillion degrees out? And why do you people have to come to my job to eat? Can't you cook at home? Rawr.

And why do I have 47 loads of laundry to do. It should be more acceptable to wear sweat pants and in the kids case cute little bubble gum machine and glow in the dark rocket jammies everywhere. Seriously cutest jammies my kid has. Ever. Love them. So does he.

And why must we watch Toy Story 9 times a day? Mommy is tired of Buzz. And why does his name have to be Woody? Know how much I giggle telling Robbie to grab his Woody and hurry up. Makes me giggle like I'm a 12 yr old boy! And where is Andys Dad in the movies? It bugs me!

And why does Bailey now ask people if they have a peanut or a buttgina? Daycares going to love that one! At least someones laughing. Even if it is me!

And why are the babies obsessed with the hose? My Saturday ended with two butt naked kids running around my aunts backyard getting sprayed by the hose giggling like fools! Their laughs melt me though. I love them too much. Even when they are being butt brains.

Helpless

Ever have that feeling? I do today. A friend of mines son was found dead just a mile from his house today. His mom laid down to take a nap with her son, woke up and he was gone. How many times have I laid down with the kids? Countless. To think that could be me is scary. I don't know how to react to it. It makes me sick to feel like that. That something as simple as a nap could end with your child face down in the mud. I live so close to the interstate. I don't really understand it.

We have so many things we worry about and to add another to the mix? I worry about their baths, clean clothes, if they are eatting enough. Now worry about taking a nap with them? I'm worried about it, sleepless.

What to do?

A little update

When I started this blog I thought I'd mostly talk about life with Robbie...so I thought I would get back to basics.

He's growing so fast! I'm going to make a list here of all of the words I can think of that he says... Mama, Mommy, Dad, Daddy, Grandma, Grandpa, Bailey, Jack, Ady, Jen, Emily, Mike, Tim, Nick, Dom, Kendra, Dave, Matt, Brooke, Serena, Scott, Chris, Robbie, Mike, Tasha, Becky, yes, no, please, thank you, up, down, left, right, outside, grass, trees, ducks, birds, cat, puppy, dog, Fiona, bath, bathroom, couch, TV, Elmo, cartoons, eat, drink, cup, sleep, hello, hi, bye bye, hair, brush, teeth, spray, shave, pee, poop, diaper, butt, wipes, wash, soap, towel, chair, potty, really, I don't know, yellow, blue, green, purple, pink, orange, apple, grape, banana, phone, book, baby, walk, sit, time out, milk, water, juice, chicken, fries, window, tractor, corn, cow, sheep, moooo, moose, bed, blanket, pillow, shirt, pants, socks, shoes, boots, coat, hat, gloves, snow, cold, brrr, warm, sun, moon, stars, ambulance (personal fav besides Mommy and love you), love you, kiss, hug, nice, mouth, nose, ears, eyes, belly, button, bottle, drink, silly, happy, sad, remote, computer, mine, may, I, have, see, hold, that, welcome and I know there are more but I can't think of them right now.

He's started to express what he wants very well. When we are driving he always asks for his window down please. He asks for milk, water or juice, to eat bananas, watch Elmo, sit on Mommy when he wants to. I'm trying to work on his manners right now. He knows A, B, E, I and 8 when he sees them and can repeat just about anything back to you. He knows where his mouth and belly are. He knows the itsy bitsy spider motions and will do them with you. He loves to sing in the car to Dashboard Confessional and Everclear.

He's been walking since 10.5 months and there are days when he doesn't stop. He's got 4 molars and 4 teeth across the top and bottom of his mouth. He's not the best teether in the world though. He's also very attached to his Mommy and always wants me to hold him or be right by him if I'm around. Everyone says he does fine when I'm not though. He hates being dropped off at the sitters and cries like he's dying when I do. He loves to watch cartoons in the morning when we have breakfast together, take baths and showers with Mommy, give big hugs and kisses, play with his trucks, go for rides in the car when the windows are down, go to the store, play with my phone, climb on everything, play with books, sing songs, feed the ducks and be outside.

He's about 23 ish lbs and is around 32 in tall. He is in some 12 month clothes still. All of his outfits from last summer could very well fit him again this time around! He's still in his crib with no signs of moving him over to a big boy bed. He hasn't had a haircut yet even though a few people would really like him to! He's sleeping most of the time all the way through but he does sometimes wake up and need a little snuggle to get back to sleep.

Like I said growing up to fast. I feel like there won't ever be enough time to enjoy all the little moments in his life. They seem to fly by. So for now I'll blog all about them and hope that it helps me to remember!

Random...

Today I had the chance to have a little meet up with a great friend of mine. I couldn't have been happier to see her or her 2 beautiful children. We went to Monkey Joe's and wow did Robbie go crazy. He was fearless as usual. I'm telling you he isn't scared of anything. He will climb, stand, jump, fall or do whatever is needed so he can get what he wants.
In other news I'm tired of the Olympics. I hate winter and it's just making it seem like fun. Not. What's up with all the people from Cali and Florida doing snowboarding...where do you practice?
And I'm sunburnt bad. Really bad. Stupid for wanting a few extra min of relaxing. Oh well...it'll fade to some beautiful glowy color soon...I hope.
Craving turtles. I think there are some in the cupboard but don't want to get up to look. Annoyed that everyone is so concerned about what I feed my son. Yep he eats bad sometimes. Loves boxed mac and cheese and those Gerber meals, so shoot me. I work and I feed him what he will eat. He's so far away from overweight it's insane. Poor ribs stick out. But then again he won't eat anything so there ya go I guess.
Ahhh sweet success...found the turtles. Only 3 left. I'm going to eat them all and like it. I had steamed veggies for dinner so I can right?
Been spending tons of time with Doodle lately just being. I'm loving it. I love that he wants me over Daddy and cries when I leave a room. Makes me feel so loved. Couldn't be happier with being a Mom. Minus the CIO last night...that was a treat. Or not. He cried and cried and said Mama over and over. So sad.
In other news Doodle is talking like crazy recently. I think he's learning a new word every 4 hours or so. Today he said "Robbie" for the first time and it was sooo adorable. I almost cried. In fact there are a lot of things that he has done recently that have made me cry. Like I love you all the time. And saying crazy funny things. I just wish that I could rewind him and relive little bits of his life all over again.